The “blogger” experts, whoever they are, say that when you’re going to take a break from blogging….that you should just go. Don’t announce it and don’t even schedule it. Just take a break when you’re feeling it.
I’ve needed that break for probably a lot longer than I would admit. A lot of life has happened in the last 5 years! So, in January I wrote a post that was very telling about where I felt God was convicting me and then I just took a break to think about it all. March was my 4 year anniversary of blogging and I did feel a little compelled that I should blog something to celebrate it but there were no words….and it didn’t seem very important. What I’ve needed for the longest time is to just be quiet and listen. I needed to really hear from God and to rest and to stop trying to process every little detail and figure out what it all means! The last 3 months away from blogging have been huge in moving forward. Getting rid of some stuff, putting it in the past where it belongs, and living in the moments we get in this life. Don’t get me wrong, blogging doesn’t wear me out…necessarily. I just needed the opportunity to heal….my spirit, my body, my emotions. And I was at a point where I was truly out of things to say.
Wow! It’s spring and the time has flown by since January. I really love this time of renewal. The earth renews itself, which is glorious to watch, and I get that same feeling inside when spring comes. My spirit feels renewed…refreshed…clean. Sometimes the winter seasons of our lives are long (but I think pretty important, also). Isn’t God amazing?…He always knows exactly what we need. Coming out of a winter season into spring feels like pure joy and freedom. I learned a lot from my winter season and wouldn’t trade one tear or one hurt…..because it’s made me realize what is important. It’s not my stuff or my status. It’s something more…
So much has happened in the last 3 months! I wouldn’t even know where to begin. But I can tell you this very definitely…God is so good, awesome, amazing, loving….glorious! I have seen beautiful things! I’m experiencing growing pains with some beautiful people. I am truly humbled that He is breaking my heart for the very things that break His. I still struggle sometimes with some junk. A lot of times it’s pride that trips me up and I pray constantly that God will keep me humble. I realize I can’t do it without Him being in control. I’ve tried a lot to be my own god. To save myself, to save face, to come out the winner. But – I am truly broken, truly sinful, and my heart is definitely wicked and very deceitful! It loves leading me in the wrong direction.
I don’t know exactly what’s going to happen from right now to the end of this life and that’s okay. I don’t feel worried…sometimes I may be a little fearful but I just plan on leaning on my Father and to keep moving forward. My prayer is that with everything I do I glorify God. That’s it really.
Enough for now! I look forward to doing a little writing every once in a while and I hope to have some very good conversations with you! Feel free to add anything you like, I’d love to share some ”quiet thoughts”.
10 And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. 11 To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen. 1 Peter 5:10
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I think it is a good thing when you realize that you can really depend on nothing but God. I mean that in a good way. Less of me, more of Him. “On Christ the Solid Rock I stand, all other ground is sinking sand.” I think He is taking us all to that place eventually if we will just take the time to seek, observe and listen. It is all about living “in Him” as He lives “in us.” Have a good day, Mel.
It made me quite happy to read your writing again. Glad to hear that the Lord is working, and continuing to grow you.
Wouldn’t expect anything less. Again, I love reading your heart, and I look forward to seeing you soon! Much love, lady!