I figured I’m up, might as well update the blog!! (I should not have taken that nap after work this afternoon.) Certainly over the last several months I have had more sleepless nights than I can count. I think that’s reasonable. When your life becomes a little unsettled, or a lot!…there’s a lot of routines that get kind of turned upside down. For me, it’s been my sleep habits, they are a mess!

I will say I am not feeling any anxiety tonight, even though I have to get up at 5:30am for work!! Anxiety can be a big issue for me. I am a worrier by nature, I inherited it from my Grandmother. She worried about absolutely everything and although I am not that bad – I often find myself worrying about things that are completely out of my control. I wonder why I do that to myself….maybe my need to “fix” things? Things like – people’s attitudes, bad situations, the chaos of this life….you get the picture. Sometimes “this life” casts us into chaos and that feeling of being spun completely out of control, that often causes my restlessness.

Even though it is my intention to exhibit great faith in the midst of life’s struggles….I often times let doubt creep in. I was reading a book the other day that offered some pretty good advice: just refuse to go there, make the conscious choice to change directions. I am really good at giving my mind free reign to run off in all kinds of directions, but lately I’ve used that bit of advice. I very much have to get my thoughts under control and just refuse to “go there” and sometimes that means removing myself from situations that facilitate those feelings. What I realized is – I am the one that needs to make a choice….a choice to refuse those thoughts.

God has been very faithful to me as He continues to help me focus on the important and get rid of the garbage. At times that has meant getting rid of things that facilitate those destructive thoughts. I found myself in that situation recently and I had to make the decision to remove the catalyst, which was hard….the results were worth it. What I think I’m finally realizing is I don’t have to accept all the garbage and lies that lead to worry. I’ve said to all kinds of people…it’s really going to be okay because God – He’s big enough to handle anything and I always thought that applied to everybody else but that maybe it didn’t apply to me and my worries.

What God’s taught me and is still teaching me – He’s got it all covered and MY God is definitely big enough to handle anything!!

Sweet Dreams!!!